The remotecontrol , of the stereo-set ,

lasting this abnormal long life-time , eight years after that split with that horrible ex , even without the results why I am still proud of me and that rightfull decision to leave her , with a J.P.Balkenende already on the radio hinting like if I already began at weblog , but I did not see that future and after that in 2005 saw already the outcome that that ex and her mentalysick friends wouldt not give up , I decided not to put one euro into my start without her , because they stalked me mollested me still with this corruption then going on if I was the threat I wanted to kill myself drinking so did not change the stereo-set as most of all my clothing before , in that year also Alison saw me and did believe that she was in with those like my ex , and that give's problems now with my finace's that credit went mostly out on trying to drink myself to death , after a year my employer wanted me to work with still collegue's admitting I made the right choice to leave that ex and not to leave my life and chance's so I thought it was best to go work somewhere else together with these labourdisseases , the Museum and found out drinking to death means that that death is more arround when you stop it without eating and draining and straining your self with work , that I had trouble's with this was forgiven , not the amount of trouble starting over me on regrets , some found it all normal , some did find it unjustice , a thing they did see like me , fired , from that museum , old workingspot more alcoholabuse and suicidetensions again , called in sick , and those calling it all normal what happend to me shutting of the right solution calling me to 'disbehavioral' and my explaining 'psychotic' and normal at the same time only when negative results to me kept following , and I forgot Alison , and saw Alison again but fully different as that moment on that crossing and later saw that she and she are the same , and don't understand why she don't trust me a letter with that open , they can not demand me to work or applicate to a job when she visits , and also that credit is my suicidenote from then , and this millstone they wanted me to bare and wear as normal , what is this message Alison shouldt better see my decisions now , that my only heal in the face to that ex is that I do like to stop smoking for Alison , what I never wanted for that piece of shit , and also shouldt buildt her opinion about me on the letters she shouldt write at least to get the answer like how she wants it but as the real me still , and not harras me and others with lies and tests for a response , when she does not like to believe this check , he is thinking natural of you and not as goldmine and that with human intrest , he is not in a parollingsphere thinking positive about a together future , but responsable as in the same time free , but accordingly together with the letters , smoking some time's or not , you have to be in his arms complete for completly nonesmoking .