My medication ,

and no , not supportive at all , 'of the voice's' , realy I do not like the thing at all that harrasment as what it is this way , "Do this , do that ." , "The doctor wouldt like you to call thursday." , I do not know what to think about it but I am not going down for it that I hear schizofrenicvoice's , even more with people outside laughing or regreting on what is going on without me telling on weblog , I miss on my medication now the start for Monday , so one dosage today I missed and am angered about what any with or without A.D.H.D. wouldt be angry about , what does not mean I want to attack innocent people or Alison might she be standing infront of my nose , people use my diagnose's only to think negative of me , in this moment they go "Borderline psychoses." , but not in that perspective everything is looking to be oké , so it is discriminative this way people do this for years , make me believe in beautiful things and arround crucial day's come up with psychological abuse as if it is normal stress what it is not , when you look at it the other way it is lies telling to make me feel down , first to feel good  and than to make me feel useless , as if I need 'fata morgana's' like this , "You can pick up your medication in time." , and then funneled together with , Alison is not wanting you , smoking bringing my finance's in danger so I stopped , also alcohol both problemless , then this funnel get's filled with that message , not untill the sixteenth to call for rehearsal medication , so a decision till so far , skipping dosage's in a creative way , or taken in like how this Concerta works for kids , together with fruitsugars , oké , then starting to translate for me while writting a good translation your self , but still this 'last word joke' , to make you feel more stupid , were I do not go along , this associationprocedure like with how that luckely moved out Leon did eavedropping , I whisper "The flowers need water." , but start and end the dishes first , sit down , and that yelled "Do the flowers some water." , those are plants , and that reaction has nothing to with Borderline psychose's or hearing not there voice's , but that became to much for me , then this stupid 'A'.F.O. bitch get's to be mentioned that she regrets herself , so what , I am busy with my life now here , and with things that are a bring down now , so what do I do after that much eavedropping to bust that writting again , and that feeling sorry , mid-life crissis , so what , that is not my fault , I never did that , come up with the 'stressresistantbullshit' , going for psychologicaltrauma to look how mean I can be and how mentaly strong someone else is , I never did that , and will stay on that , also not on impliements like , "I was in your house stealing your cleaningspray." , or "I bugged your house with listning in microphone's." , and then go for you hear voice's , and comming up with "Even without to be with you I can make certain things in your life to be a painfull farce ." , and then call me dangerous again while lieing that it is all in my head , no , till so far it is just obsesive illness to think I need people also those I do not need to know or better do not want to know , an extra amount of useless unneeded information towards me to go , "He (as in I) aint handling stress right." , while it is , that is faking , lies telling , and being a farce your self , so yes in this moment I couldt go for this emergency medication , somewhere else for a higher price , and then it is to see that I'll manage till monday , then come up with that extra bullshit again to give it an overtrowing kick what went on yesterdayevening so that choice was harrast some more by these 'intelectuals' thinking that they are better than me , making this fake implaments I need them , I need reality but not from those like that , lieing about who they are , and what I am , and what I need , by those stalking fake's , and a exception Monday that rehearsal prescription to go to the pharmacy , because I did not know that my doctor and his assistent had a short break from Tuesday till yesterday Friday , and the useless info , or impulses are not going to lead in that where they then call me not a liar all of the sudden on diagnosed A.D.H.D. and passed away Borderline personality syndrom , trauma's I handle real well , by staying realy social , and not like those wrongly 'moneyseërs'-monkeydoërs .