I had to walk ,

with stumbling into the same subjects for photo's again , and think even of leaving to Drenthe for a day , my birthday to break to slumm about that day , my dad did not call till so far about a visit like last year , and that way I avoid my mid-brother Erik to again go pin-ball over every thing he brings up in the middle of my answer and then like's to go trough my thing's for drugs that I don't have or trying to go tougher then me and calls it an 'no' base for an argumental situation or a fight , so I better pass on that get an early train to Drente and then from one of their main railwaystation a bus to some openairmusuem to cellebrate it without that even when it is fourty years old and a dissapointing one compaired to my expectations I had and told to Erik for instance , so that was not given to me till so far , and average age , seing that just thirtytwo to go , so no better to that then get tilt by that pin-baller in more feelings of living is useless , I still see it that way crime does pay the way they let me lose by faul play .