And no , she did do say ,

I do not mind if you smoke , also trough others , Maggie Lake on W.T.B. were this whole selfcare thing came from , and I thought to rubb that piece of shit Kincaid in , "With violence no one get's me , but then a smoker does got a better chance even." , even when I do have to stop smoking because of my money , it does not say one thing about the future together , just as she likely feels about what everyone did for her and me untill now , and her disguisting choice now , and not that I can help it , but then in 2005 she fell for me , when I was on Mushrooms , Alcohol , Porn on d.v.d. nearly daily as Weedsmoking , that next to sigaretsmoking , now she does do that , being an egocentric asshole with such a decision till so far , looking down she does to me as how it looks in a unfair way , even more not able to trust me I call it a faint excuse , more a lie .