And again 'mother' of mine ,

deserves this , with the photo of this in the unchronical order , again a doesn't , let me on to not regret this .

Did , did like it ,

normal in a way , how much more straight can it be , did like to see this F.B.I. warning say's to , .... for educational purpose's , what girls do on their own horney , so boy's like me know , be protective in that way to be discrete and private about what the have for fantasy with boy's also seing that being better of going not "You are to innocent for that." so after a few years she a taking out monster , or he , and then without discreteness and privacy what follows sometime's when the "You are to innocent for that." , become's "You are so sick ." , in that way yes , educational , but also grow out to not watching it when have that great sexlife together , or want that together by knowing the need or fantasy , instead of trying to kill each other or your self over it , so so many time's I did like it to watch to get not in shock on girls their wanting and needs or ashamed about mine , that simple , and also to give that up , but what is said the last few day's as if I nothing else , BULLSHIT !

And I do believe that ,

that Alison did not know , that that bought from Apple adress was turned into a pedosite , the same as I , by not watching that anymore for the love I have , but a hate for what doesn't , like how that N.O.S. keeps on their sick thrill of make believe , together with their snitches from Club Cheescunt , and doesn't stop !

And that sexboobtubething ,

that followed after being warned , "Don't mention that about Dionne de Graaff trying to explain that her job was to hard for her to have to watch that." , well my life is to hard by this paprika-ASS bourgeoisie bitch from the N.O.S. together with her friends , comming with not much than reversepsychology-tactics .

With those cowards ,

changing the direction also here .

With that Paprika-ASS ,

going on , maybe with their missed one in the freezer , next to the druggs , waiting for 'Rupp'&'Jame' with all still legal here for them .

Platinum ,

maybe gays agreing with me shouldt buy that , in this tipthotime a gay and friends warned me for it not to buy it , and yes then I am less youthfull with this Anteaus but it is the first A-brand eu-de-toilet I had a sixteen by my dad , later Gucci Nobile , and of the market all the sudden my own second choice after that gay-signal  Nobile , was Givenchy it's Insensé , so back to the other good bottle to straight-signal Anteaus from Chanel .

At least I tried ,

no the sd-cardreader finished on my laptop , by digitalcowards like those the N.O.S. protects to much , hey call me name's , then find a deadbody in a policeman his garden , a minor in age and sexvictim , by being the second girl , because that one his wife is away for a holiday with somebody else , and that all for that paprika-ASS of P.V.D.A.-'kid' Dionne de Graaff , and later that Eva 'I am not rich' Jinek .

Real men like myself ,

do not like to save anymore on this , and it is Chanel pour homme , what you wear in the nude still , so a birthdaypresent I bought from the birthdaymoney my dad gave , he will like me for , that back , 'to much' , yes after my shower , another two time's pressing the evaporator .

Realy bullshit or not ,

but that is not what I need , compliments , but not what I need for years , their big fat payroll on my expense , with that slander , walking away with it , and still do invade the privacy of those who don't appriciate that , with them starting about Alison Kosik the most , I am not answering a thing , as long as she don't , and no I do not like any discusion on the personal results of mine as if it is my fault by that N.O.S. walking away with all .

My grandmother ,

also sadend by it , she waited on me , my dad called me , and I called her just a minute ago , so this harrasment has it's negative effect waymore , I hope that N.O.S. can see they are unhumain , not we .

Those P.V.D.A. mutt's again ,

the Olympic Games , and 'hinting' again , that 'they' feel 'sorry' it did not happen with Alison , realy I did cancel my visit to my grandmother by it , this kind of harrasment , knowing I watch , so there they are in my dad his livingroom again , and there you are with their thick fat paycheck using taxmoney and invading privacy to say something , but then maybe they can call them 'heroicinvestigationjournalists' again by calling us badname's to dig up deadbodies by criminals they get on the phone , the usual , when this is going on , I do better not get the televisionprescription , those moneywolfs egocentric to the bone , the people knows I am not a homosexual , and not going to call Alison bad name's , maybe still confused by all the slander the N.O.S. did to me and still does that way , ruin a good day for their own thrill , a to long going on real sick thrill .

So the whole ritual again ,

the rootfoot of my tree shaved clean , after my face and neckshave , the shower ofcourse , that together with the tondeuse to millimeter my headhair , and now this impresion as if I am like those is off , realy those are that disguisting for years copycatting me to fake they are like me , and I know this is how I looked every week not one in two weeks so maybe try that every week again untill those 'nazi's' go look like me again , realy I will never be friends with those cursing and yelling through staircase that they are now no homosexuals , I did my shaving , and ignored it , as a real hero I do not even go to their door to discuse it , because then even that is not the case , but 'worrieng' , like in ticking me off with 'voice's' and to much tensions from what ?

Youthmigraine ,

this concerned a pounding headache , vomiting , nausy , for weeks nobody did no a flue without higher tempature's , and that quater dropped since last year , that is is that , what I do not need to repeat then only , that one upstairs still there in the housingsection for rent , those knew Erik , discusing their homosexuality in 2010 instaling internet on the only phoneline available , in my house "And then see that one I want ...." , "Yes." , "I hold on with it and will not deny it with me or us." , but what we know is that they also bacame friends with any enemy with this queerbehavior living with them since , in short Erik knows them , just like that dork I called dork in the supermarket , with after that calling me 'mean and homophobic' , with in the stupitest explaining my tributal poem on Diana Rigg and emancipation a gaypoem , but most of their bi-sexuality is for still getting it of in jail , or bring on a fearfactor , stinches and or migraine's , my 'luck' is that the Anton's and KellyKeileigh left but that dorking one's are still there in their sociopathicbehavior , 'worrieng' about me .

His sheepclothing then at first ,

and you do , "How can that be , such a face , become so LOW and disguistingly mean ?" , I gave hope up since this age of his , after my first nosebleed in life by him , going on four to five years of age , he alway's attacked me , harrast me , littery sometime's spatted me , to get his way with my mother so I avoid him as death itself or am more friends with death for life , that much is a gossip his paroler 'bribed' him , no visit of me , then less penalty for all the things I have no account of , what say's enough about me still wanting to leave this paradise for criminals , finaly listening to me to get less time .

Wanna kill some homo's ? ,

Even when it is your own flesh and blood mid-brother like I have , it is that stinch again , like sandpaper on the outside of my nose , while that Erik might have no sense in all he has but the most in nose I think , passing by but not visiting , but that stinch is that much terrible as if I requested it , what it is not ofcourse , but that is his thanks , for me setting straight on what he is , and what I am the past few weblogging years , still getting his assfucked for given away druggs thinking about me , so I am not mentaly sick , or having this chronical clinical disease , he is .

En Pete , weer voor een dichte deur ,

het laatste gesprek "Andere dag ?" , dat wist ik nog , en dus niet "Helaas dan toch weer Maandag." , terwijl ik van de 31-ste uitging , morgen Dinsdag , het slop , nee ik blijf wel bezig me naar de nering te krijgen , dat blijft .

The Dutch name to the side ,

sounded like some Paris-Dakkar racetruckdriver , but at first I thought , some Americans daring again to expand in Europe after this 'hot-war' against the religionalinsane , this war was with Europe not against , so a good move in positivity on world internaltional(ism) and economicsharing , powertools and mechanicaltools , oké , that one I did think of , but did not write but my mother for a thank you on the mugg , so went past this truck with a lot of chroming so it can be a franchise , or a sponsor of racetruckdriving the old snout was back on this one , what more truckdrivers like now ferryboats are hardly used by trucks anymore , and this deadangle of small things get's a bit bigger to the driver but also the warning of some upfront of it .

De laatste keer dat ik daar ,

nootmuskaat koop , en oké thuis er pas achter komen dat het zo duur is , is hartstikke dom , maar ik dacht dus aan andere prijzen van de gember en paprikapoeder , later kijk ik daar nog wel een keer weer naar , maar het is belachelijk hoe duur nootmuskaat is als je ziet hoeveel paprikapoeder je hebt tegenover zo weinig nootmuskaat , dus die nootmuskaat haal ik in het vervolg gewoon weer bij een andere supermarkt , en nee die prijs is weer wat ik wel weet , het zal wel kloppen , maar waarom het zo duur is is door de gestegen populariteit van nootmuskaat ineens , of mislukte oogsten en dat maakt het schaars , dus mischien de volgende nootmuskaat dan maar niet zo vers als deze .

That was the old day's ,

the speak in end of the phonehorn , that is the microphone , AND , what couldt without placing a thing !

Yes hopefully gays ,

will share that among others "Don't believe it , when they lie to you about a chance with him." , they world wouldt be so much easier without phonehacking and at pinpoint start screaming , phonehackers are digitalcowards and have to be shot in the head for unhumanity , that is what I think , and keep on thinking .

I know , just like smoking ,

but that I do , I am a notgay , a hetrosexual , proud of it , so homosexuals defend that with your homosexuality , instead of only wanting to admitt it when it wouldt be with impossible me for being not gay , so it is slightly different in that what I said on smoking , I still do like to quit on it , so I did , and do , with again stinch from a stupid homosexual sitting outside in the street , the only person left there to do after so many instigations , I hope they trow his window in again for his stalking , and not wanting to f u c k with that Anton .

The gaystinch is away ,

so those "I want not to hit you away , but why ?" , that is gone , like what explained , that Anton is a homosexual , and was watching synchronical with me by their burglary , and that in the appartment above me getting horny when I saw a beautiful woman , so narrow that I got to think "This can not be in this much , while wanting to have this reserveness towards the actress that is in both our respect to old , or different in age than me or what she play's then." , so this evolved into the wrong response to Alison what I explained before , I do believe it , others "Who know Anton." know it , he riecks , that filthy swetrieck , so you might hit your wife , or go after that on to the guy in play to make you feel gay , also this gave a stinch back from me , what costed me my full coulour black of my denimtrousers , but the delight is , that that I have to hit you away for not being a woman sense , that is away , and I can enjoy my d.v.d.-s better without that .

And better not mention tomorrow ,

so I do , what I did not mention upfront by just thinking about it , what make's my 'regime' a spontanious one again , a good again .

Clean plate ,

for rice and beefmarinade , oh cheery , yes I am going to eat the full plate I think it is best .

Elevating ,

or try to not mention , and get myself back together again without complaining , what Alison does not deserve , right in the middle , no altough it is a beautiful day outside with rain and open sky with clouds and strong sunshine , I avoid that for my own resons by staying in , also on the internet I was not , then just doing nothing more than what shouldt do , and also wanted to , do nothing at all than calm down , pluck some facialhair a bit , footfile a bit , hugg the cat's (well petting is more like it) , and rearange the laptop , maybe try a reprogramming to get my photoprintfunction back on an againthing (how to loose money by legalcrime by no laws) , so basicly I keep on accordingly , no going to hate my life , but what does not happen .

And that one without the manchetteknife ,

(that I did not buy for her birthday , in this eavedropping country where only the rich get rich by the lies they sell) 112 ? , how to call that type of grandparenthood when I am off this polygamy dictatorship ?

So that one 95 ,

in Dutch together with her , betovergrootvader .

I look younger then

Erik , that is a good thing , looking younger than your midbrother at least , and yes I look a bit more tanny now , but the sunlight hardly touches my face , why uh , Swedish girls are so prefferable , with like most Scandinavian just eight hours max a day of sunlight , and get to be called youthlings so long even as a couldt be grandmother , as I grandfather , can be turning fourtyone , and that young child get's a first child at eighteen , and then that one also , with various deffendings , so a next one at that eighteen is thirtysix , plus fourtyone is seventyseven becoming a greatgranddad .

And another good thing ,

beerbottles without this corona of dried in beer underneath the bottlecap , nearly every beer had that in the fastness of production this like a cupcake paperwrapp on the top , like some varnish , dried in beer, oh we are so lucky with that much 'Christianity' after J.P.Balkenende .

My name grew ,

and on this site not a thing about me , but Tobias as given name place 79 last year , but Toby is given just less then fourty time's , but get's such a 'high' place , what make's me more think of how or Dutch nation 'grows' like realy 'overpopulating' , but to the parents who called their child like me because of me , a big hearty kiss and also well meant thanks , I love you all !

Lovesorrow that I got ,

and what more to do with it I don't know from what angle have to close this , or even don't know if I have to close all I wanted with Alison , but I am not going to make her excusses , and will be also not going into this typical heartbroken behavior , I am depressive and try to avoid it , I'll try to go on more solid food again , so cut the soupeating , what is affective behavior enough , also other people find it unfair how it all is to me without knowing how and why she does not get it that it is mean of her to go on for so long and not just even doing that , see my losses buildt on expectations to be with her without anything in between , like our phonehacking and gouvernment that I did not write about it , so immigration couldt say "A request on a change of national law make's it impossible to honourate such a request to leave your country fully nutralised into this new nationality." , that is one thing , building things on a social scale old but good friends on Facebook , she is tare-ing away so much by letting me down like that , and it is not going to be easy to replace everything I gave up for Alison her full conviction about us going to be a dreamcouple as how most people then wanted to assist us for , I held my part of the bargain , did write for her birthday , Valentine before , and that in mind that this month she can make up for every letter I did write what is my right in it to know what is wrong , this I say for weeks now , she better believe it I do not feel well about it , but am not going to bother others with it , who so know what that is , just as how I said it , so I'll do what I do , get my single man joke's back in , and are never going to give them up again , even how much is promised or wanted by media , I am a person , a human , and one with rights like any other , and was good to write and more , but I am not crazy , I am not going to lick Alison her butt again , and be shoved off as some stalkerwhimpp .

I am a righthanded ,

and more by the rule's on writting , but it grew on me to do the most things righthanded , so placing the pen over from my left into my righthand has had it's influence to watch out with that one to (people afraid of picking things or shielding then use left) , but it not a bad mugg at all this way , and yes in my childhood this name was not you couldt get on your personal things , and in the middle of the nineties it became a retrofashion again to even photo's of yourself or dads walking in T-Shirts with their first baby , oké my mom tried it to say wanted that also that much , a family of your own 'bully-ing' about my new ten number , fourty , so that I forgive what I will write in a thank you , and also about the photo , keep that one for being this true photo on how I am , but please don't complicate the thing for my old youthfriend that warned my as a friend "We grew in different directions , nice to see each other again but I doubt that we'll fit together in the direction we did choose differently." , what it came down to , the like the adrenaline that what I do not , so my 'butt' is save , we are not socialising anymore for the best of all , so my mother also better accept it , what I also accepted in right time , spend right .

But a lot on Syria can make me feel better ,

as it did , Russia will not delliver arms to Syria , and America , the Democratic Obama administration is increasing the contacts with the opposition against Al-Assad , as also the rebels fighting to maintain Aleppo , oké , there people do not need me , but that feels better , that it is not going to be a return to the Cold War situation by Russia getting less nuetral by not selling the weapons , and inquieries are made with who follows up , what has not been done in Egypte with a Morsi winning the elections with a political party he 'left' and using one Mubbarak minister again , and then Lybia had long range rockets from France , but still saw Ghadafi killed after the support to the Lybian rebels then from the air by France , and do that not , many killing afterwards , with Egypte still the strangest , but the good boy also .

Oké I still look like in my thirdties ,

I realy don't care for any compliment about it , also have to say that does not mean I am open negative comments also , and will stay to try to get my first day after my birthday also not to sink into depression and the to curse the hell out to everyone now not wanting this to 'happen' to me , but truely also am not going to forgive them for that victimisation to patrenise me and then don't call that stalking , realy those DutchMediaMaffia on polygamy I still hope to die painfully with a minute or three or four full agony for their 'prooven' remorse , but like I said with their sorry I can not pay the bills , even more when they keep 'psychotic episode's' as soon I will like to make a courtthing of it like that National Ombudsman his returnletter .

One crate on return ,

no donation of the refund to the Fair Trade organisation so green button , but for new envelopes those DL , so nineteen cents left , I bought icecream again , catlitter , and some beef , my mother needs a none offencesive letter about her gift , because yesterday I saw her comment and positive her mother , my grandmother called me and swallowed the notion and went on about this heat , that see can not do so , much not an old age thing I explained , but the truth is I do not ignore her wise age past seventy , and also did not worry about her "Ho oh oh." as if something dropped , just like my mother in a end of the phoneconversation , what means happy to go on with something else , that kind , as in kind clumsyness is what inherrited from them maybe , also having everything comming at once after this phone is finaly picked up to call , beer I had enough that is to see , I did not count the bottle's but this is one of the better health years as how it looks with hangovers , not this flu-state , but a tired sense of the leggs and no pounding headache , most of the extra tensions were off compaired with last year and I did my best to see it as no birthday at all , so when I woke up mopping I had in mind , and did half the dishes more bigger like some birthdaydishes by the three boxes for my finished soup , and the spoons , but it looks it is going to be looking like this typical household with moisterised toiletpaper , going on well .

The last bit ,

of that 'onion&beef'-soup , into a chilisoup with eggnoodles , and what fans know , one hour and fourty minute's so , fourty and a day plus , starting , is so .

So , zo ,

dag , by , having a break .

Nog èèn die ik vergeten was ,

"Als het toch niet zo duidelijke foto wordt , dan es epress." , what I did , go use the unclearness by shaking the phonecam , k800i .

See no PhotoDJtm ,

and a lot I don't do .

A resting bumblebee , with k800i

and those wings are on any otherthing not able to make that size fly on it's own , unique costumised .

With the c905 ,

goed idea , op zo'n dag , ik wacht nog even , op niemand , maar op tot deze dag voorbij is .

K800i , and no much rush , screennoise ,

but sharp , for some I am ashamed know that I did them on , moved , or thing in the background , but here totogether , so a good phonecam it was en is when you do like to go not for further result as this , no print out or then look in how to keep the same contrast as on the screen of a computer or tv .

From a sigaretmachine ,

the photo with advertisement on a plastictransparant behind it the light of the machine , a theft of that of others I did much then five years ago , I kicked some 'balls' .

Normal conversation at one M .

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húm.

Where my first and , shared appartment was ,

in a Z block , with nearly 400 numbers , we 68 , no away , no not emotional about it , is a lie .

Only got this ,

that magazine Cherry went away , psychadelic !

Elf at night ,

this playing with how to see it , in the dark .

Old mirror reflex ,