I found the episode ,

wich my ex cursed at me that I wanted to see that , Magrait telling point blank at the librarianwoman "You know you can be beautifull but don't want to to shelter you from what you try to hide , but use it to that abbility to be beautiful." such in the near of that , and the killed whore , by the disargument with that ex , that I was stupid to like to follow such a serie in the end of the nineties I remembered it as two different episode's but realy just one .