I keep it ,

that receipt , Achterweg , behind away , just achter is also found out something like that in Dutch , it's not what I'm going to do like then , smoke , my eye's hurted again , this morning going to the toilet with that bleechlog it's fume's , shortness of breath , slime from my glaucoom , cough up's that bited my tongue , there still is more reson to go not on with smoking , than Alison her wishes , and it wouldt help if she and I wouldt be living together , the laundry also , I'm ashamed , and also I need that , the other answers about her wanting me and how and why , that is not what I have in written confessions like I sended to her , with every familygrieve I did sent for as don't start abouts in thoughts of getting to learn a lot more about her's , that upfront from me , that is what make's me so scared and desperate , but she also then for not believing me that I want to stop even with to much keeping in touch why I want to and don't proof it at the same time , I'm feeling sorry that I did that mistake and going to round it up that wrong habbit with that sportiness during the chance of purchase , with still money that is what it means , even when it is all working against , the last smoking moment comming soon , my cats more Indy going crazy , and pubicbonestinch triggering sicko's , I'll do it again , and then not start again on to smoke ever again in the morning I felt terrible by that shortness of breath that I wanted to even when it is a disguisting setting to see for eye's in this example perhapps but it is to say I still like to make that wish .